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“I once was blind but now I see…”

Last night before climbing the stairs and heading to bed, I gathered carefully selected night time snacks for our sons. For our eight-year-old monkey, I chose a banana and for our carb-loving seven-year-old, a peanut butter granola bar. After wrapping the bar in a napkin, I set it on the corner of the window seat next to our son’s bed and then balanced the banana on a suitcase right by Joshua’s door. I fell asleep satisfied and hopeful that our sons would awake in the morning and call me blessed for remembering to provide the yummy snacks awaiting them. 

Instead, Joshua greeted me with the most pathetic glance and question of the day, “You forgot my snack.” Ugh, no sir, not this mommy–I remembered thanks to your reminding at least once after bedtime. The second award for the most pathetic question went to our carb–monster Timothy. “You forgot my snack basket,” he stated. His statement wasn’t as pathetic as much as it was  judgmental. Yep, I could have left it out for every eye to spy but instead, I wrapped it up tight like a good-morning gift, minus the bow. I guess that’s what my boys would call a mom fail…

Both of our sons didn’t see what they had expected when they woke this morning, both also accepted the feeling of deep worry at the ideas floating around their minds–Mom forgot and doesn’t care. Maybe they expected my failure based on the few times I did forget to rise quickly in the morning with  an orange or a baggie of crackers. Their concern left me feeling sad and discouraged–rather than remembering what I had done in the past as their nighttime food fairy–they allowed fearful doubts to consume them so much that they missed seeing the good thing I left for them to enjoy. Isn’t that just like all of us though sometimes? We often allow ideas, doubts, and fears to reign in our heads for way too long. Fear and lies want to take and maintain residence–blocking all truth. They want to rattle around in our brains even though God and others do show love and grace to us everyday. I know too often, I also find myself on guard against doubts or worries over whether or not I’m loved or cared for–do you?

You know, our boys strolled right past what they had hoped for–they never saw it. Pride said they knew sure of what happened even after I asked a few leading questions. However, it took loving truth to bring clarity and two humble hearts to receive it before they could move forward toward blessing–belief, full tummies, and thankfulness. You should have seen their little faces once they realized they didn’t have to wait for their snack–it was waiting for them. One sped up the stairs and one dropped what he was doing as soon as he heard the truth. What a joy to watch their eyes dance, their trust in me revive, and our bond grow.

God waits for us so patiently for us to see also doesn’t He? I pray today will be the day we all look into God’s word and humbly say–we are ready to receive your word as you intended Lord. Oh how we need God’s abundant grace–don’t we? We can only imagine the blessings awaiting us who seek and humbly follow Him. I once was blind but now I see and I choose to trust my Father because He already proved His eternal love for me. 


Grace and peace be yours in abundance through the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord.

His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature, having escaped the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.

For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But whoever does not have them is nearsighted and blind, forgetting that they have been cleansed from their past sins.

Therefore, my brothers and sisters, make every effort to confirm your calling and election. For if you do these things, you will never stumble, and you will receive a rich welcome into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.”

2 Peter 1:2-10 New International Version (NIV)