Joshua looked with intensity at every country– some that aren’t even on our current maps any longer. Then, he began to thumb through the pages and sound out a few words.
“G…o…d…Go…d…God!” He exclaimed.
“Is this about God? Will you read to me?” Joshua asked.
“Yes, this is God’s story and yes, I will read to you,” I said.
After he snuggled a little deeper into the pillows of fleece that wrapped us, I began to read right where my fingers opened in the book of 2 Timothy. I read chapter after chapter while Joshua sucked on his thumb and listened to my voice.
As I read 2 Timothy, I welcomed the words like drips of rain on waiting soil. It’s almost if I had never read the passages before, because they felt so fresh and new. Today, the words in chapter 3 stung my heart and mind.
“But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God–having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with them. They are the kind who worm their way into homes and gain control over weak-willed women, who are loaded down with sins and are swayed by all kinds of evil desires, always learning but never able to acknowledge the truth.” 2 Timothy 3:1-9 (NIV)
I’m left this morning, wondering. I’m wondering how many of these cancerous traits that I’ve allowed to worm into my home and heart over time. Are they trying to wiggle into my life now through relationships, through written, sung, or spoken words, or through the two dimensional people upon the screens I own? Who am I allowing myself to become? How do I want to be known and be remembered?
There is a burning desire in me today- do you feel it too? A longing to be known- as a lover of God and people, as generous, humble, gentle, honoring of our parents, grateful, holy, loving, forgiving, trustworthy, harmless, gracious, self-controlled, kind, as a lover of what’s good, faithful, reliable, and wise. A longing to be filled with truth in a world drenched in deceit and to become more alert to the enemy’s trickery. A longing to not offend God or be unbelieving and foolish…
I believe that these life reflecting traits can only come from God himself, through his outpouring of grace. Apart from a relationship with God through his son Jesus Christ– we can’t be any of these things for very long. We fall short, come up empty, and make a bumpy return back to our self-centered tendencies.
If you are ready for a change– seek him.
If you are ready for help- ask him.
If it’s quiet- keep knocking on his door.
There’s a better way and he is waiting.
*Note: All of the highlighted words on today’s blog are links to more truth and end with a powerful message in song… don’t miss out!