I Surrender. These words are not easy to say. To some, the phrase might be an admission of defeat, to others, a laying down of burdens, or a yielding of deeply rooted pride. Two little words that are able to change the course of someones life, someones destiny, someones eternity. This week, I surrendered. I humbly surrendered to the reality that my Father knows what’s best for me. My persistent prayers in the past have gone something like;
“Father, please show me what the best decision is to make. What’s the best way to resolve this conflict? Where is the best place you want us to live? What is the best curriculum to use to train up our children? Where is the best place for us to adopt from? Father, please show us not just a good vehicle but the best van for our family. What’s the best way to manage your money?”
From this sample list, you can get a good picture that our prayers for “God’s best” span over many subjects! Sometimes we may not know what His best is for us unless we ask. You can imagine our surprise when we were affirmed that God’s best for us was a 15 passenger van, to live in a remodeled chicken coop, for me to home educate, to commit to debt free living, to adopt from foster care, and to forgive someone even when we are offended more than a few times!
My past, present, and future health has been foremost on my prayer list this week. I enjoyed rare time with my sister and we conversed like two old ladies about our aches, pains, illnesses, and our treasured natural remedies. Our mom listened with the utmost patience to our stories and revelations while we sat in her kitchen. As I committed to pray for my sister’s ongoing health struggle and my own discouragements over a sluggish digestion, I heard that still small voice. “You pray about My best in everything else why not my best in your health and in the way you are eating?” The question knocked the wind out of me. Honestly, I haven’t wanted to ask God to reveal the best way to care for my body. The devotion to pray in that way might require my dedication to a new way of life, and I felt nervous. My past excuses flashed across my mind like a spot light, and I shrunk back and cringed. Regardless, I exhaled a long sigh and surrendered my will at that moment, exchanging it for God’s best whatever that would be. After searching for wisdom and understanding, the course lay-ed out before me now, is a custom made map to health from my Creator.
Soon after making my decision, I sat at our table with our children. While food stuffed their mouths, I read the living words of Proverbs 23:1-3 to them. “When you sit to dine with a ruler, note well what is before you, and put a knife to your throat if you are given to gluttony. Do not crave his delicacies, for that food is deceptive.” I then read insights from “The Book Of Proverbs- Book II” By Kevin Swanson–
“Whether a man indulges in wine or in chocolate cream pie, he can still fall into the sin of excess. The drunkard hears the plaintive call of another glass of wine, and the glutton hears the call of another piece of chocolate cream pie…As a man places too much emphasis on food and goes out of his way to serve his taste buds, he turns food into an idol, and that idol will beat him to death…” Humbled by the dim road we now realize we’ve been traveling, we spoke up to confess foods that tempt and seek to deceive us and then we prayed. As the purchaser of groceries, the traffic controller of our kitchen, and the bouncer for that rear end sticking out of the refrigerator, I continue to see more clearly the valuable role I play as a parent. What I daily “feed” my family and myself – matters. I am grateful that my Father does know best and that He loves me enough to discipline me when I need it.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.” Jeremiah 29: 11 & 12
“Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it. What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul? For the Son of Man is going to come in his Father’s glory with his angels, and then he will reward each person according to what they have done.”
“HAPPY FATHER’S DAY to my faithful husband of 20 years in September! Thank you for leading our family and for using your role as “father” to make an eternal difference in this world!!” I love you always- Kelly