|Is your barn door open?|
“Mom, I think he was raised in a barn,” our fourteen year old commented after the heating contractor exited the house. The door was left ajar yet again for little fuzzy creatures to enter and send me up a chair screaming. Over the years, our children have been hearing the traditional, “Do you live in a barn?” question when they leave a door open. It always makes me smile to ask that question and the kids respond with an enthusiastic– “Yes we do!”
During the last six and a half years, we have lived in a remodeled chicken-coop, yes–a barn. Our relocation from Florida, led us to a barn-home with a pond. We enjoy our spectacular view while dwelling in a humble structure among much newer neighborhood homes. We looked past the dilapidated exterior, tiny rooms, and six to seven foot ceilings and took a joyful step of faith into another family remodeling adventure. However, by the standards of some, even after quite a few updates, we quickly realized that it was not the most ideal home for our family of eight. Whenever we discussed our next projects, well meaning people would say–”You guys should just tear this place down and start over.” I admit, those comments uncovered a lot of my own hidden insecurities, fears, anxieties, and tested my belief about God’s provision. I began to doubt it.
Prior to our purchase, we faced great temptation to live beyond our means and build a custom home, it appeared to be the quickest way to accomplish what we had always dreamed of. Our plan seemed good but we weren’t at peace with the financial commitment. So, we surrendered our wills and dreams, and prayed for God to show us His best for us. He did and after much prayer, we moved into this home nine months later as His best for us. Now when I look up at the gamble roof line which perches under massive oak branches, I am reminded how Jesus chose to be born in a humble stable. He chose to come into this world but not be of it. In doing this, He also models His will for me. In the past, when the tears have poured down my cheeks over our lack of space, it has acted as a physical illustration for me to surrender my will again and again. This home continues to be the catalyst that spurs me on to:
- Choose a grateful and content attitude regardless of my circumstances.
- Persevere, seek, and wait upon God with hope, trusting His supply and timing.
- See this barn as a tool that tests and grows my faith daily.
What is the tool that God is using in your life to get your attention and draw you nearer to Him? I pray our hearts will continue to be left open to growth and maturing. I pray that we won’t run from either screaming but that we allow the doors of our hearts to continue to remain willingly open to everything our Father wants to transform and renew inside us.
“Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest, and repent. Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.”
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.”
“Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.”
“Unless the Lord builds the house, its builders labor in vain.” Psalm 27:1